Today while I was waiting for Marcia to be done “radiating”, I was praying that the laser beams would destroy all the cancer cells and that she would feel good this afternoon. But a part of me was again questioning “why her Lord??”
As I sit in the waiting area and look around it is all “old people”…..people AT LEAST 20 years older then us.
So why has my friends life been thrown into a million little pieces??
That’s what it can feel like….life was going along just fine and then BAM! You get some health news that you just don’t expect and your whole schedule changes on a dime.
Its like someone shook up the box full of puzzle pieces and threw them out all over the table. A huge messy, unclear picture.
But one by one they get put back into a whole picture again.
But as she was in the room I looked closer at the puzzle and realized that when all the pieces are put back together it will be a rock.
Rocks are solid, strong and able to anchor anything that comes their way.
Just like God is our rock and the One that we cling to through this journey.
Marcia is feeling amazingly well, considering! In fact she walks faster then I do and I think feels better then I do. (Really, with my history of having celiac and how I feel everyday with my pain, I should be the one with cancer!)
(And yes, of course I automatically assume that I have a tumor somewhere! lol Don’t we all do that?? When someone close to us has a “big” diagnosis we think we have something major! Ok, so I’m probably the only one who does that….my dear husband just laughs at me.)
Marcia has been a bit nausea and tired but she feels like the prayers of many is what is keeping the “nastier” symptoms away. So please continue to pray that she will be spared from the nastier side effects from the chemo and radiation treatments! And that the nausea feelings will go away too!
We are polar opposites though. I’m much more “the realist” and she is always the optimistic one. For instance: She had pictures taken today. I asked her what they were for…..she didn’t ask!!?!? lol She is just so trusting and figures she will find out eventually….where I need to know the who, the what, the why and ALL the nitty-gritty’s details.
She promises she will ask tomorrow when she goes…for her friends sake! lol
I don’t trust doctors. You have to be your own advocate. I’ve learned that the “hard way” unfortunately and I guess I just want to protect her and make sure she is getting the care that she needs and deserves.
I kidded her that if I had cancer I’d have like 5 people lining up to help me! Whereas she has an army. She is so loved and is always so kind that she never makes anyone upset. (Unlike myself…..who annoys people at least once a day! )
The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.
It is a blessing to have that many people who love her so much as she has all her appointments covered for transportation and meals are rolling in. She feels so loved and cared for and for that I’m happy!
I love her to pieces and am so thankful that God has just opened up my schedule so I can truly focus on her and what her family needs during these next 6 months.
I think we will both be changed and stretched, for the better, through this journey.